The endless search for shelter and home has me feeling very neither-here-nor-there lately. It's a weird and embarrassing situation to be in a constant limbo - clueless about which direction we're headed and forever waiting-and-seeing. By the grace of a loving and generous family, we've been able to set up camp in an otherwise unused piece of property just outside of the city. It's not really "home," but we're happily making it our home base for now, while we wait for some decisions by summer's end.
I do miss the buzz and conveniences of being in the city-proper, but I must admit it's been a nice, quiet retreat from the hubbub these past couple of weeks. And it doesn't hurt that there's a relatively massive kitchen that has been tempting me to make use of it.
While Avienne is on summer break, and as we wait for our real vacation to start next week, I've been indulging in a few "homey" activities. It's been working to relieve some of the sting of still being "homeless" and has been providing a much needed distraction from all the other doubts, concerns and questions I'm currently juggling in my mind. It's so easy to get lost in the negative of our situation, and believe me, I've been losing it. But, I want to look back in a few years and remember how we persevered as a family, and how we made the most of our situation by focusing on the good and enjoying the little things. It's such a special time in Avienne's childhood, that the only thing I want to do is be present to create those special moments with her.
So, here are some little things I've been enjoying over the past few weeks; the things that have made my heart feel full and my time feel well-spent.
I have missed cooking. When Gui's co-worker gifted him the most gigantic squash and cucumbers from his home garden, I thought "what the heck am I supposed to cook with those?!" After my calabaza con pollo barely made a dent in one zucchini, I opted to bake some zucchini bread to go along with a cake salé I'd already been planning. It was so fun to be back in the kitchen with my little helper whose weekly baking sessions at school have definitely upped her baking game! Now, I just need to figure out what I'm going to do with that second zucchini.
We had THE best time at the Jardin d'Acclimation a few weeks back. We spent the day running all around the park, carousel-hopping and mechanical horse-riding. Avienne loves carousels and definitely enjoyed the Dumbo ride (especially with her Papa), but we hands-down had the most laughs on our way out of the park while stopping through the crazy mirror trail. We could not stop cracking up at how funny we all looked in this one mirror.
Give me good coffee and this beautiful floor and my life is complete. A favorite spot in the middle of the Palais gardens.
I never knew I would love being a mom to a girl so much, but I do. Avienne brings out the girly in me and it makes me so happy to do things like braid her hair and paint her toes. I hope she'll always let me indulge my often overlooked girly side with her.