Saturday, April 28, 2012

Girly girl

Since finding out that we're having a girl, I've been having a hard time resisting all the cute baby clothes and accessories I keep seeing everywhere.  It's amazing how cute little girls clothes are these days - not everything is pink and polka dots or flowery pastels  like I remember it used to be.  Everything I've been crushing on is basically a mini interpretation of what I'd want to wear (naturally), so although I've been pretty good at being reasonable, I haven't been able to say no to everything. 
I'm kind of in love with vintage baby clothes, too, which makes for even more temptation.  While on vacation last weekend, I scooped up a sailor dress and sun suit that will be perfect attire for the summer heat. And, the other day, while browsing a shop for non-baby-related stuff, I stumbled upon the cutest stuffed animal and had to take her home with me.  It totally reminded me of something my crafty grandma would have made, and it seems like a good way to sort of connect the generations.
We're also extremely lucky having friends and family with good taste who are equally eager to buy a cute girl outfit and gift it to us, or who have had sweet babies of their own to dress up.  Everyone keeps reminding me how babies grow out of their clothes almost weekly, so between my inability to resist and the generosity of loved ones, I think we're pretty much set for the first 6 months at least.  Let's just hope we really do end up having a girl!

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Four years

Four years ago, I was standing in front of the mayor of Ch√Ętillon in a roomful of loved ones (including my sweet mama), promising to them and everyone else that I would love and cherish Guillaume as my husband for as long as I lived.  On that day, we laughed a little coyly when the mayor talked about where we'd write down the birth of each of our children in the famous livret de famille and how we'd have to call her office if we had more than 10 children (the "family book" only leaves space for 10 children to be documented).  So, here we are, four years later and a few weeks away from updating our livret with our premier enfant.  

These past four years have been such an adventure for Gui and me, so much so that it seems like it's flown by.  Now that we're adding a new member to our family, those first four years of marriage when it's been just him and me seem that much more special.  From 2008 to today, we've become a family of two, making decisions about our future together, dealing with crises, celebrating triumphs and preparing to bring a brand new life into our world.  If these first four years are any indication of our future, I'm anxious to get there.  I could not be a happier wife, and I could not ask for a happier life than the one I've created with Gui.  

Happy anniversary, indeed.




Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Belly reality check

I can't believe how big and round my belly is.  Gui took a few photos of me today, and even though I see myself in the mirror every single day, I didn't realize how much my bump had grown until I'd looked over the pictures.  I'm just glad I don't feel as big as I look these days - it's hard to believe there are still two more months left for my belly to grow even more.  I just can't even imagine it.



Sunday, April 15, 2012

Country cuisine

On Friday, one of Gui's coworkers invited us out to his house in the country for a crawfish boil/barbecue. I've been dying to get my hands (and taste buds) on some mudbugs since February, so, of course, we accepted his invitation in a heartbeat. What we didn't realize was how serious his coworker was about food, but when we arrived and saw the professional barbecue pit and 70 pounds of crawfish, it was obvious that he meant business.



And, man, it was delicieux!  I think I ate my weight in crawfish and pork ribs or at least made up for all the barbecue and boils I missed out on during my three-year stint in France.  I found out later that the guy behind the grill all day was a BBQ cook-off regular and had won first place in town and tenth in the state.  That's no joke in the BBQ-lovin' state of Texas, and I'm so glad he did not hide his talent for us.
 
Besides cramming my craw with some good grub, it was nice to get out of the city for an evening, away from the Friday night traffic and into some wide open space with a laid-back crowd .  Austin's not exactly the concrete jungle, but sometimes a girl just needs a backyard full of friends and mosquitoes to balance out the constant buzz of city life.  Hanging out on the balcony of our condo just isn't quite the same as swinging from trees in the middle of nowhere.


Tuesday, April 10, 2012

30 weeks

Well, here I am.  Only 10ish weeks away from having a fully-cooked baby in my hands.  I've reached the point in my pregnancy where I'm feeling very introspective about bringing a new life into the world.  I'm sure every other woman who's ever been pregnant before can attest that the feeling is both exhilarating and terrifying.  It's so scary to think of all the possible tragic scenarios that we could find ourselves in throughout the course of life and at the same time, it's so gratifying to think of all of the happiness that's created and shared in a lifetime. 
The unknown is always the most disturbing concept to ponder, which is why I try to steer my thoughts elsewhere when I find my mind contemplating the unknown for too long.  But, thinking about the little life that Gui and I have created, the small soul that's been sharing a body with me for the past seven months has made me feel joy like I've never felt before.  It's a feeling that even the unknown future that lies ahead could never erase from my memory, no matter how uncertain or grim. 

I love that I can bond with my daughter in a way that no one else can, relishing in those routine moments throughout the day when she moves exactly as I expect she will.  And even those moments when she catches me off guard, like yesterday in the grocery store, when she moved so quickly and so unexpectedly that I had to stop myself mid-step.  Even those moments make me realize how personal and private our bond truly is.  No one else knows her yet quite like I do, and I treasure that connection.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Last Day

On Friday, I said goodbye to some amazing colleagues as I left my office for the last time as an employee. It was a hard decision to make, but we've decided that giving myself time to prepare for baby before she arrives and then staying home with her after she's here is the best thing to do for our family.  I never imagined that I'd ever be a stay-at-home mom, and I'm still a little nervous about this major life change.  But, I'm thankful the decision is mine to make and feel really grateful to have the time to do all the things I've been piling onto my to-do list. 




Before I left, my sweet colleagues threw me an adorable baby shower/farewell party and surprised me with some really thoughtful gifts and goodies.  I'm really sad that I won't be seeing their faces everyday, but I'm so glad I was able to reconnect with some of them I'd already known and forge new friendships with others.